its been nearly 5 years but life haven't got any easier. People have been cruel but they don't really know my pain. I'll never really know the truth of why you took your own life but it hurts each day. I look at our children and think what they are missing out on which is their dad. I wish you were with me, with all my heart I do. there's not aday that goes by that I don't think about you whether its in anger or thinking what we'd be doing now. You were my rock my soul mate my everything and when you died a big part of me died with you. I miss you so much I have such big regret and I'll pay for it for the rest of my life if only I could turn the clocks back i'd have you here again. My hearts broke I love you I will always love you I just left it to late to tell you.

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Name of loved one and dates: nigel bartlett (jigger) 2nd March 2002